I glide through the fragrant earth, unending fluorescent green streaks contouring the pathways, drape myself in this finery, to walk towards thee. We are here together, on the edge, looking beyond the velvety valley and the pristine cerulean sky.
My adulation is unearthed, like dewdrops glistening in the tangerine rays, you deserving of the pedestal where I see you. My eyes seek the promise, which our hearts have known all through. The path is as clear as the small rivulet glistening over the gravel as we choose to be companions.
We walk together to another town and capture the diversity and humility of the inhabitants, as per our sensitivity, guiding each other but not obstructing, separate but within hearing range, performing and accomplishing the same goals. The end of the day we meet satisfied we lived our dreams accompanied by our sensibilities and desires.
My fascination towards you stays intact more so as we stop to sense, smell, taste and breathe the same air, sharing the same space.
We travel again to journeys beyond, take the path lesser known, to explore, experience, live another life, than the one we have known.
Eyes closed and a bow with gentle reverence to the deity on the wall I rush out of the house, latch the door, recheck again, drop the keys in the bag, and fly down the flight of stairs. It’s another thing, that it is an everyday affair. Morning time is always a rush hour. Continue reading
And he said I have issues.
What went wrong?
How can it be corrected?
What did I not do?
Did I misinterpret?
Did you misunderstand?
Where should have we stopped?
Are you true to your core?
What is your core?
Do I see it?
Do I even know you now?
Do you remember at all?
What are my values?
What are yours?
Do we need those?
I stayed by the values, but not for long. You helped me undo from those retricting cords. I glorified in the moments. Set myself free. Expressed myself openly.
Then it happened. I discarded and gave myself. Faced rejection in my face. Looks at me in the eye. He says he loves her. I say I understand. Why did I say that? What do I understand? What should I understand?
I am dealing with it.
Hiding from it. Hiding from all those who probe, and want to see it, be a part of it.
Seeing eyes, where there are none.
Hoping for hopes sake where there seems none.
Where do you find it? Does it even exist in reality? Was that a blessing in disguise? Why do you feel pain; because there is expectation? And how do you give a part of yourself away, but stay grounded? Where do you cling on to? What are your roots? Does all this end up in what should be and shouldn’t be?
What bout purity of thought? Being nude in own eyes, I find I still love myself. I still want all this. I may pursue finding the truth again. Someday hurt will tire out and leave my side. I will see you there, at that next junction. Only to see one path ahead and no more choices!
Yes I have issues, with Trust. Because I have no answers to my own questions. I am back here in my shell. On track as before as if nothing happened. Safe and protected until I find myself.